Thursday, August 30, 2007

The Lady Hooligan on Succulence

I have recently bought myself the book Succulent Wild Women, written and drawn by SARK. AND read it in one go! But now I have started again, from the very beginning, and am reading it bit by bit…

After 30 and ¾ years I have finally realised that I am a starved Succulent Woman, waiting to break out! For all my life, I have been subjected to, and formed by, my perceptions of other peoples’ opinions… And in this case, many falsehoods do not add up to one truth… Instead, I have created a totally warped self-image and hurt myself incredibly badly with negative self-talk and simply by taking other people to heart…

So in many ways, I have reached the proverbial cross-roads in my life. This is where Blues singers are professed to sell their immortal souls to the Devil, but also where serious life-altering decisions are made.

My decisions are clear now. There are many people whom I shall be weeding from my life, subscriptions cancelled and associations broken off. There are many new paths to follow and some to run from as fast as I can. And all the way, it’ll be by my choice, not by brute force, or because I am afraid of what others will think of me…

Case in point is the gemstones I have recently bought myself. They did not cost me an exorbitant amount of money, although they are worth thousands, but in symbolism they are totally priceless. I have designed myself a ring around the one ruby, which should also work out rather cheaply. (I shall be supplying the gemstones and most of the gold!)

That ring will become my engagement ring. I shall pledge my troth (I had to look up this expression!) to my inner self, the woman I know I am destined to be, and promise to honour and cherish her, respect and adore her and forsake all others, till death us do part… For once, opinions won’t matter, because I have finally found a cause big enough…

And now that I have found my travelling companion, I simply can’t wait to start on this journey!

2 comments:

eduardo waghorn said...

Hello there!
Sailing in the blogosphere I found your interesting blog.
I know in Southafrica now many races are living in peace, Im very happy because this.
I think we have to learn about our past errors...:)
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Warm greetings from Chile!!
Keep blogging...

Lady Hooligan said...

Thank you! Yes, I agree that it's a good thing to learn from past mistakes, and I must add that people of my generation don't do too badly at it! However, I think that as long as there are different people on this planet, there will always be tension, because people fear what they do not know. Warm greetings from South Africa! The Lady H